First Rays

Let me start by saying ive written 3 songs in a week. Jigsaw, Dark, and Hello. (Yeah i know i stole the evanescence title) I showed Hello to my friends including the bassist to Forgiven Not Forgotten. Long story short, we worked out a deal.
1.each band member gave me 5o bucks so they could use my songs.
2.Any record that i was in the band at anytime has been erased. I take no credit for the songs. (which im fine with.)
3. Im gonna post 5 songs on my music for my blog. Hello, Rebel, Black and White, Paranoid, and Be careful what you wish for.

Also, Alexs sister told me today hes IN LOVE with me.

Kate The Fallen

People tell me many things. That im bound for greatness in my writing, destiny is the word they use. Some people who dont know me tell God to bless "such a pure soul as this one." They say ill join the peace corps, change the world through eloquence and passion.
Never again shall I listen to the words of souls mislead. Misery is my only constant compainion nowadays. So tell me this, someone. If I am destined to do something, does that mean that future is set in stone? Is there a puppetmaster, be it deity or mortal, in my life that comtrols me? Am i a pawn to him? Or do i hold a skelleton key in my hand? Can i realease these chains that bind me to my cell out of my own will? My hope has been exiled, and now I am a captive of my own arrogance. I have taken a fall from grace, and now I lie on a bed of nails, my arms not free to take control and free myself.
Or..... Are they?
Perhaps I have had the power all along. But I was suffering from an illness known solely as cowardice. Shying away from the limelight and letting others do my work for me. Perhaps... I just fooled myself into believing everything will be okay in time

Jigsaw

Well this would have been on forgiven not forgivens third album had they not kicked me out. Its a hell of alot diffrent than "Black and White" but then again, my life is a hell of a lot diffrent then when i wrote "Black and White." This song is inspired by Linkin Park, more speciffically, "Faint" by Linkin Park.

Well, i see you there sitting in the shade of a tree
And all your big brown eyes can do is look right back at me.
You can see me there, you can see the look in my eyes,
The division, the pain, the fear, and despite
All this you just turn away again
Shy away from me and ran!
(BR)
How long will you avoid me?
How long will you wait?
How long will you leave me in pieces?
How long til you see the light of day?
(CH)
Do you know what you did to me?
You brought me to my knees!
Your filthy hands took hold of me!
And dismantled me piece by piece!
You are the one who made this mess!
Now pick. Me. Up. AGAIN!!!!!

So. Now. Take a look around. Do you see your world?
Do you see the pieces of me you hurled?
They fly through the air and dissapear
They're gone, they're lost, thrown out and done.
And all you do is laugh and laugh,
But the humor will not last.
Cause your world is crumbling down!!!
(BR) (CH)

Do you know what you did too me?
You made it so i could not breathe!
Your filthy hands took hold of me!
Your face forced out all my sanity!
It wouldnt leave me alone and it broke me!
So now. Fix me up. AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!

Betrayed..... Broken..... Left for dead

Ive been betrayed. No this is not about nell. I was being a bitch there and as you can see i erased all the those angry blogs i wrote. try to forget i ever wrote them. If youre an awesome dude named janky, then u know some of what i will tell everyone now. And no i am not crying wolf, or decieving you in anyway.

this is how my life fell apart:
1. the day after christmas, i was walking with my friend downtown in my city, she was about six feet or so in front of me, and a car came screaming down the road, driven by someone DUI. the car collided with my friend, (whos name i shall not reaveal) i rushed over to her, but she was dead before i could even call 911. Later i found out that a rib had snapped inwards, piercing her heart, causing death almost instantly.
2. another one of my friends, (jade you might know of him) named Alex, now gives me this evil eye for no reason, and ignores my texts and calls.
3. My bf dumped me for "whining about my friend's death."
4. 4given not 4orgotten kicked me out of the band, and now are going to steal my lyrics and use them anyway.

nells auora

wow. some how, i cant stay mad at nell long. she has this auora or something about her lol. thx for understanding nells! xD

for some reason the game hasnt recognized my password today, but ive been meaning to talk to nell, so if u read this nell, post a comment. hopefully i can talk to u soon.